Covid-19

What a time to be alive. We’re in the middle of something that has the potential to be a turning point in history. This is the first pandemic the majority of us has ever experienced and hopefully, will ever experience. It’s also the first pandemic in history in which we have technology as a tool to aid in communication. There will undoubtedly be countless studies researching the behaviours of people during this time, and what might they say so far?

From what I’ve observed, there’s been two kinds of people – there’s been the people who, despite literally the entire world going through the exact same crisis (admittedly to varying degrees), are playing a victim. These are also the people that are likely to be panicking and hoarding supplies – buying in excess rather than in need. Buying for themselves with complete disregard to the remainder of the population. But then there are the people who are supporting those in times of struggle, those that are offering their supplies or facilities to those in need, those that are remaining calm, loving, and generous. So which type of person are you choosing to be?

Crises and adversities have the ability to divide or the ability to connect. I like to see this as an opportunity for the latter. It’s an opportunity for us as humans to get back to the basics of what it means to be human – to look after one another. Last week during a team meeting I held for Salisbury Inter, I proposed this question to my teammates – how can you make someone’s life easier? What is one small thing that you can do that will make a big difference in someone else’s life? I gave the example in soccer of making that extra recovery run to cover your teammate, dropping those extra few metres to drag a defender away from your teammate, or communicating on the field. Those small actions are effortless. But they make a massive difference. And during this period of high stress, I pose that question to all of you – what one, small thing can you do that will have a big impact on someone else?

This is a time of massive uncertainty. And uncertainty is not something that humans readily embrace. Because we crave certainty. We want answers. We want to know how long this damn thing will last. We want to know how we’re going to survive. But the reality is, no one has any answers. No one can predict the future. No one knows how bad this could potentially get. Yes, being uncertain is uncomfortable. And yes, with uncertainty comes feelings of anxiousness, stress, panic, fear. All of which are completely okay to be feeling. As are feelings of disappointment over holidays that need to be cancelled, over jobs that you’ve lost, over family that you might not be able to see. These feelings are okay. And these feelings are to be expected. It’s what makes us human. What’s not okay is the behaviour that results from the anxiousness – the panic buying, the hoarding, the fighting over toilet paper. How are your behaviours making life easier for someone else? Do you really need that extra packet of pasta? Or those extra sanitary items? Or is it possible that you can survive for a week without them?

Stressing about the future won’t make anything more certain in the present. As I already mentioned, no one knows how long any of this is going to last. But what I do know, is that the government will not allow us to suffer. There will be protocols in place to ensure that those small businesses that have had to close, the small businesses that make countries the country that they are, will find a way to reopen. Just as the government will not let people starve because they are out of a job. Look at petrol prices right now – they’re the lowest they’ve ever been in five years. This isn’t something that any single country can monopolise because every country is going through very similar adversities. But what we need from each other, is a collective mentality. A mentality of “how can we get through this” not, “how can I get through this?” That is perhaps why there was such a negative reaction surrounding the Adelaide café that set up a GoFundMe page asking their customers for donations – yes, your business is struggling, but so is the entire industry. Do what you can to not just benefit yourself, but those around you.

As for the stimulus payments, I believe that we should be prioritising those that absolutely need the payments above those that can survive a few days or weeks without them. It’s almost like Simon Sinek’s Leaders Eat Last policy – if you don’t need it, wait. Let those that do need it get in first. In the same way that if you were in the emergency department with a life-or-death ailment, you would want to be treated before someone who might just have a cold.

This is a challenging time for everyone – absolutely every single person in this world will be affected by Covid-19 in some way or another. What a time then, to connect. To come together. To be there for one another. To get to know your neighbours. To spend time with family. To get creative with leisurely activities. This is something bigger than you. It’s bigger than your family. And it’s even bigger than our country. This is about the entire human race relearning what it means to be human and being human means looking out for one another. If we all vouch to take care of those around us, those in our immediate circles and potentially beyond depending on your financial resources, we can all get out of this primarily unscathed.

So yes, this crisis has the potential to bring out the worst in people, but I believe it also has the potential to bring out the very best in people. But that comes down to a choice. So how are you choosing to respond? Are you responding in fear, or in generosity? In selfishness, or in expansiveness? What is one thing you can do to make someone else’s life easier? Check in with your friends, check in with your family, and check in with yourself. We’re all in this together. Literally.

DEFY THE ODDS

six months ago, i tore my acl for the third time. i was distraught. heartbroken. devastated. i thought i would never play soccer again. i refused to have another reconstruction, not just because of the physical rehab but because i knew, mentally and emotionally, i just couldn’t go through that again.

so i asked my doc, can i try and play without an acl? his response: you can. but probably only 1 in 100 people can do it. are you that one person? probably not given your history of acls, but it’s worth a try. let’s start with three months conservative management and go from there.

i hit the gym hard for four months. i strengthened i stabilised and i succeeded. i returned to training and completed two pre season games, and tonight, six months after tearing my acl, i’m making my official comeback by playing in round 1 of the wnpl.

the truth is, no one really knows what’s going to happen in the future. my doc’s advice was based on sound knowledge. and the stats? those are based on the reality that not many people have even attempted to play without an acl. the more we challenge limitations, the more opportunities that will unfold. and not just for ourselves, but for others too. once we see one person achieve something, it makes it achieveable for us too. representation matters.

so are you choosing to be confined by the limitations of others, or are you choosing to defy the odds and lead a movement?

To be a being

What does that even mean? What does it mean to be human? And what does it mean to be a being? What differentiates the two? And why is this such an important concept to understand?

A couple of weeks ago I took some time off and went to Hamilton Island to clear my head. I wanted to gain some clarity on a few different aspects in my life – particularly in relation to soccer and my future. While staying at my friend’s apartment I came across this book, The Lost Art of Being, and everything that was in that book was exactly what I needed to hear.

As many of you know, I’ve had an extremely difficult time letting go of my dream of playing W-league. It’s been a dream I’ve been chasing for over ten years. A dream I’ve invested significant time and energy into. It’s a dream that’s occupied the forefront of my mind, dominated many conversations, and a dream that’s caused more heartbreak than pleasure. How could I possibly let go of something that I’ve wanted so badly? That I’ve devoted my entire life, to this date, to achieving?

It started with asking myself why. Why do I want this so badly? Why is this so important to me? And I had to start getting honest. And the honest truth is this: I wanted it for the recognition. I wanted to know that my hard work was worth it. I wanted the pride in saying I was a professional footballer. I wanted the credibility. I wanted to not feel like a joke – having seen almost all of my peers having played W-league at one point or another in their lives, I felt like I've missed out. And unfairly so. I wanted it for my ego.

I tried to justify my dream by saying it would give me a platform to influence more people, to gain credibility amongst the younger generation, but the truth is, I just wanted it for myself. I wanted a name. Because I wanted all the perks that came along with having a name – the money, the recognition, the sponsors, the assistance with medical bills, and the opportunities. Or at least, that’s what I thought I wanted.

Before I left for Hamilton Island, I had a really good conversation with a coach in the WNPL about playing without an acl. I asked him whether he was in pain now, “Yes,” he said. I then asked him if he regretted playing without an acl because of the pain he was now in, “Absolutely not.” He explained that he took a calculated risk, one in which I am doing too. There is no guarantee that by me not playing soccer, I will prevent the need to have a knee replacement in the future – people who have never played sport still require hip and knee replacements so if that future is inevitable, am I not better off doing what I want in the meantime?

I explained to the coach that I think the hardest thing about me playing without an acl is learning to let go of playing at the level I’ve always wanted to play at, and he responded in a way that started to shift my perception. He admitted that yes, I might have to let go of playing W-league, but that doesn’t mean I can’t have a significant influence in the WNPL for many years to come if I have the desire to do so. And he was right.

I realised then that I’ve been so focused on the macro – so focused on influencing many people widely that I’ve forgotten that it’s not the macro that’s important; it’s the micro. It’s influencing fewer people in more intense, meaningful, personal ways. I can’t do that if I have hundreds of people responding to my blog posts or Instagram posts. But I can do that at the level I’m playing at now.

This perception shift was aided by a question my friend on Hamilton Island asked me, “Would you be fulfilled if you were able to coach a player to play at the level you never did?” Immediately my heart closed up, my chest became tight. I don’t want anyone I coach to be subjected to such a toxic, political environment where they don’t care about you. Woah. Hold on. Why the hell do I want to subject myself to that environment then? If I know the environment isn’t positive, if I know the environment won’t fulfil me or add value to my life, if I know I won’t be able to have the influence I want to have because I’ll be silenced, why would I still want to be a part of it?

This idea of having and chasing dreams is a very human aspect of our lives. We teach kids that if they work hard enough, they can have and be whatever they want. But that’s not true. And that thinking is flawed and destructive. Humans want to be in control. They want to create their future. They want to believe the aforementioned statements. And everything in our society is tailored towards this kind of thinking – towards “success”. Towards making “something” of yourself. But at what cost? Is money the ultimate goal? Is that what brings value to your life? Just ask Steve Jobs. His final sentiments explain that no matter how much money you have, you can’t pay someone to carry your illness. No matter how much money you have, how much success you have, how much fame and fortune you’ve attained, these do not translate into joy. So why do we place so much value on money?

Because we’ve been conditioned to. We’ve been conditioned that the world operates around money. That in order to do anything, to have any influence, you must first have money. But do you really need money to have an influence? Do you really need money to feel valued? This last question is something I’ve been tackling recently – my entire life I’ve been conditioned into thinking in a human way – that money is important. Money represents value. But could there be something more valuable than money? I become conflicted because I’ve been taught I should know my worth, fight for my worth, and accept nothing less than what I believe my worth and value to be. But why does my worth and value have to be represented in monetary terms? Because it is for everyone else?

In the last couple of weeks I’ve been seeking player sponsors so that I can continue getting paid to play soccer. But I’m struggling. Because it feels wrong. It feels wrong to ask for money when I don’t necessarily need it, but I’m wanting it because I believe, or have been conditioned to believe, that money translates to value. I’m asking myself – if I was given an extra $5, or $250 every week, will that allow me to do any more in my life than I’m already able to do? What value would that extra money actually add to my life? Now I’m not trying to say that that amount of money wouldn’t make a huge difference in someone’s life, because it probably would. I am beyond fortunate that I am in a position where I don’t need that money. So why was I so obsessed with obtaining player sponsors?

Because I’ve lost the art of being. Because I was incorrectly associating value with money. Because I’ve been so caught up in the human aspect of my life, of chasing things, creating things, doing things, that I’ve forgotten the beauty in allowing. The beauty of focusing on the micro rather than the macro. The beauty of building relationships for no other reason than the genuineness of the connection. And it’s in these genuine interactions where I can have the most influence. Where I will feel valued. Where I’ll return to my being.